Eating so healthy

Papaya - fruit source
Cheese - dairy source
Choc Chip Granola - main breakfast entree from Nutrisystem.

Saturday: Day after a great show...and a little 'bout Michael Jackson

Went to see Pete Yorn at The House of Blues yesterday. It was a great show and he is just awesome live. I came out of there pretty sweaty and dehydrated. I'm not used to standing room only type venues. I'm old so my body isn't used to this stuff. :D Now I'm drinking Gatorade and coffee (decaff).

I'm still eating well, exercising and losing weight. I don't want to think of how much further I have to go. Just have to keep at it. One day I'm going to be there. I have an image of myself and how I want to look, feel, etc. and I just know I'm going to reach that goal. I have to say losing weight feels great. You can really tell the difference when it comes to sex. You're capable of these wonderful Kama Sutra positions that you could never get into before. Sexual Calisthenics. LOL! I guess I will stop there. Save it for the porn blog. J/K.

Michael Jackson's memorial service was Tuesday. I cried when his daughter, Paris spoke and told everyone how much she loved her Daddy. The boys seemed a little out of it. The eldest was chomping on his gum the entire time, but guess he can do whatever he wants since he's in mourning. I have feeling it's all going to hit him later. Hopefully those kids won't be messed up. I have to say, doesn't seem as if they're lives are the greatest.











I think MJ's family is strange for not putting him to rest. They still don't know what they're going to do with his body. I say, let him freaking rest already. You chipped away bit by bit at his soul when he was alive, now let him go. They see $$$ signs and it's sickening. The sad thing is how the public will eat it up.

So....

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Last night I spoke to "him" on IM. I can't say it was a good conversation, can't say it was a bad one. I guess it's good that we're talking. Is it? I have no idea. I have a feeling its going to all wind up where it did before...absolutely fucking nowhere. This has been going on for way too long and I feel the friendship has kept me back. I think, as long as I don't hear his voice I'll be okay. That's easy to do. Avoid, avoid, avoid.

I have been on Nutrisystems for 1 week now and so far so good. I've incorporated some exercise into my new lifestyle change as well and it's not killing me yet. I do need to get a grip on my body before things get out of control. I am feeling really good. Also, I'm not feeling that afternoon crash anymore either since I've stopped drinking regular coffee. I have the energy of a 25 year old. It's amazing how the body responds so quickly. Well at least my body does.

I got a ticket through the mail the other day. Is that not cool or what? It's my first one. I love technology. It rocks. Since it was the day I started eating healthy again I will use it as my my 'before picture'. When I was a fatty. That's after I probably have to pay hundreds of dollars. I should go to traffic school but that's such a waste of my precious time.

Saturday, what's on the docket? Probably fucking nothing because hubby is still sleeping. As are the dogs. Fucking shit.

Finally Friday

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Hubby is at work and the kids are sleeping. I finally get some alone time.

Today was my first full day of Nutrisystems eating. It was pretty hard for me to get used to it all over again. I'm having a rocky start, but I"ll get there. Persistence overcomes resistance. Eventually. Right.

More drama at work with my ignorant supervisor. He just doesn't do the right thing and it causes a lot of problems within our team. All today did was take away a couple of hours of production. He made a mistake and didn't see it.

I spoke to my therapist yesterday and explained how I need to save money for my monthly food supply and that I may have to terminate our partnership. Well she's not going to let me do it. She told me she will lessen my copay to $10 and I can basically show up when I want. I think this is really nice of her. She explains that we're meant to be. I laugh at that. I got the validation i needed from her to hear that I'm okay. If she thought I was crazy she would've said so. I just need to be less emotional and stop yelling as much, which is going to be hard for this NY bitch to do.

Weird about David Carradine, huh? Eww. It kinda grosses me out. I cringe when I imagine him hanging, with a rope around his penis in a puddle of his own ejaculate. Yeah, so you were part of that show, but now all that's kind of gone out the window for me.

I'm going to watch Taken now.