Faux Sick

I decided to stay home today because i didn't feel that great over the weekend and thought I should sleep in today. Everyone needs to sleep in, don't they? It seems the flu feeling has left me now. I wonder if it was the swine flu. Never know.

Instead here I am...home and arguing with T about something stupid that he did. I go round and round and can never seem to conclude the argument with him. He always fails to see he did anything wrong or that he hurt me. Impossible to be close to a person like this. He just doesn't get it. He is such a perfect person.

Last night I spent my time talking to J. It wasn't the greatest conversation either. I had a lot of cards to put on the table with him as well. It sure is hard being married and having these two single guys on the side. LOL. These men are already old and set in their ways. They'll never change. I should set up an auto reply for my email that says that so every time they email that's what will be returned...."you're an old man and set in your ways and you will never change, so leave me the hell alone."

I caved and joined Facebook yesterday. I have no idea why I did because it's rather boring and I don't have that many close friends. I know, sad. I am such a hermit and mostly socialize with only my family. The way I like it. Most of the people I talk to are through work. I have absolutely no desire to get in touch with anyone from my ELEMENTARY SCHOOL! That is so ridiculous. And the few I would like to talk to can't be found.

We will see how that goes.

Saturday: Day after a great show...and a little 'bout Michael Jackson

Went to see Pete Yorn at The House of Blues yesterday. It was a great show and he is just awesome live. I came out of there pretty sweaty and dehydrated. I'm not used to standing room only type venues. I'm old so my body isn't used to this stuff. :D Now I'm drinking Gatorade and coffee (decaff).

I'm still eating well, exercising and losing weight. I don't want to think of how much further I have to go. Just have to keep at it. One day I'm going to be there. I have an image of myself and how I want to look, feel, etc. and I just know I'm going to reach that goal. I have to say losing weight feels great. You can really tell the difference when it comes to sex. You're capable of these wonderful Kama Sutra positions that you could never get into before. Sexual Calisthenics. LOL! I guess I will stop there. Save it for the porn blog. J/K.

Michael Jackson's memorial service was Tuesday. I cried when his daughter, Paris spoke and told everyone how much she loved her Daddy. The boys seemed a little out of it. The eldest was chomping on his gum the entire time, but guess he can do whatever he wants since he's in mourning. I have feeling it's all going to hit him later. Hopefully those kids won't be messed up. I have to say, doesn't seem as if they're lives are the greatest.











I think MJ's family is strange for not putting him to rest. They still don't know what they're going to do with his body. I say, let him freaking rest already. You chipped away bit by bit at his soul when he was alive, now let him go. They see $$$ signs and it's sickening. The sad thing is how the public will eat it up.

Good week

The oldest man in the world died today. His name was Tomoji Tanabe from Japan. He lived to be 113. You can read about him on Wiki. I find this truly amazing. RIP, Tomoji.

Had a wonderful time with J this week. That man just rocks my world. He knows it too. Work was slow. Now it's Saturday and time to do the normal household chores and relax. Kids aren't here, doing their own thing so it's quiet for now. Hubby and I are watching some TV shows from the week. I've been catching up on blogs and reading tweets. A lazy day indeed. I have hubby watching True Blood right now. I figured this is how he should be spending his Father's Day instead of on the Golf course. It'll always be there. As previously tweeted. This weekend is about me. And him..kinda too. Of course. Hee hee. :D

Lovely day at home today

I felt like taking a 3 day weekend, so I did. I watched True Blood, did a little exercise and took a cat nap. It was wonderful. Now I have a short week to look forward to. It's just starting to feel like summer so I needed a break.

I must make sure I eat good tonight. I had a bad lunch/breakfast so tonight I have to stick to my meal plan. It's hard. :(

Tomorrow is my son's last day of school. He's going to be taking on online course and play summer basketball to keep him busy. I'm happy we'll have some time off from being a slave to the alarm clock. Well the kids will, but not I.

Too bad it's back to the grind tomorrow.

Good Morning, Starshine

That's an old song. Nobody probably remembers it. 1970s-ish.

Last night I spoke to "him" and I thought things were going well but he seemed so much less personable than he had been in our past so I had to just leave. I couldn't sit there and wait for our next words of communication, I had to go. I figure I'm free to do that but I'm sure he'll be mad at me nevertheless. At this point I don't know what to do because it seems like he isn't making any effort. I may need some time away again.

Today i have to finish watching some movies, run a couple of errands (my house desparately needs a vacuuming. The vacuum broke yesterday) and get ready for tomorrow.

I will pop by later.

Shopping

I bought new towels from Target. How cool is that? I have to hide them from my kids or they'll end up lost. Towels in my house are like the other sock you can never find.

So....

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Last night I spoke to "him" on IM. I can't say it was a good conversation, can't say it was a bad one. I guess it's good that we're talking. Is it? I have no idea. I have a feeling its going to all wind up where it did before...absolutely fucking nowhere. This has been going on for way too long and I feel the friendship has kept me back. I think, as long as I don't hear his voice I'll be okay. That's easy to do. Avoid, avoid, avoid.

I have been on Nutrisystems for 1 week now and so far so good. I've incorporated some exercise into my new lifestyle change as well and it's not killing me yet. I do need to get a grip on my body before things get out of control. I am feeling really good. Also, I'm not feeling that afternoon crash anymore either since I've stopped drinking regular coffee. I have the energy of a 25 year old. It's amazing how the body responds so quickly. Well at least my body does.

I got a ticket through the mail the other day. Is that not cool or what? It's my first one. I love technology. It rocks. Since it was the day I started eating healthy again I will use it as my my 'before picture'. When I was a fatty. That's after I probably have to pay hundreds of dollars. I should go to traffic school but that's such a waste of my precious time.

Saturday, what's on the docket? Probably fucking nothing because hubby is still sleeping. As are the dogs. Fucking shit.

Finally Friday

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Hubby is at work and the kids are sleeping. I finally get some alone time.

Today was my first full day of Nutrisystems eating. It was pretty hard for me to get used to it all over again. I'm having a rocky start, but I"ll get there. Persistence overcomes resistance. Eventually. Right.

More drama at work with my ignorant supervisor. He just doesn't do the right thing and it causes a lot of problems within our team. All today did was take away a couple of hours of production. He made a mistake and didn't see it.

I spoke to my therapist yesterday and explained how I need to save money for my monthly food supply and that I may have to terminate our partnership. Well she's not going to let me do it. She told me she will lessen my copay to $10 and I can basically show up when I want. I think this is really nice of her. She explains that we're meant to be. I laugh at that. I got the validation i needed from her to hear that I'm okay. If she thought I was crazy she would've said so. I just need to be less emotional and stop yelling as much, which is going to be hard for this NY bitch to do.

Weird about David Carradine, huh? Eww. It kinda grosses me out. I cringe when I imagine him hanging, with a rope around his penis in a puddle of his own ejaculate. Yeah, so you were part of that show, but now all that's kind of gone out the window for me.

I'm going to watch Taken now.

The Sleeping Beauté Is Awakening

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I have no idea how even to begin. I've had so many blogs that at this point it's impossible to count. Most were not for public consumption. Today, however, I am choosing to expose myself. Then again, I really don't know how far I'll actually go just yet. I'm blogging strictly for cathartic reasons. My blog has no theme. It's random. Random bitch, basically. So welcome, and hope you can enjoy & appreciate the neurotic nature of my blatherings.

What can I say? My marriage bores me to tears and I have two men (well 2 who are more constant than the others :) who are interested in me for different reasons. So I take them out of their boxes every once in a while and give them a go around. Yes, it's pretty funny, isn't it? Well, that's my life. Seems like the norm to me. To you, maybe not. Oh well, can't please everyone. But I have a great therapist for that.

We reside in California. Frequently you may hear me complaining about it because I hate it here. I want to move to Washington, but hubby won't budge. I have two children, two dogs, a cat, and a bird, who all keep me pretty busy. I love them all.

I can't believe tomorrow is already June 1st. Still waiting for my Prince. While I'm waiting I think I will apply some crack cream to my heels. Wouldn't want the SOB to finally show up and think I look a little rough around the edges...so to speak.